tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78809097674751233382024-03-13T20:51:45.448-07:00Blah Blah BlahKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.comBlogger50125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-6487897476929400822014-05-13T21:41:00.001-07:002014-05-13T21:41:52.745-07:00Ray BradburyToday in a journal, I stumbled upon a quote that read: "I wish you a wrestling match with your creative muse that will last a lifetime. I wish craziness and foolishness and madness upon you. May you live with hysteria, and out of it make fine stories... Which finally means, may you be in love for the next 20,000 days. And out of that love, remake a world." -Ray Bradbury.<br />
<br />
That may now be one of my favorite quotes, if not my favorite. <br />
<br />
I then researched who Ray Bradbury. His thought and words about love and books, among other things really made me love his mind. <br />
<br />
He's the old man I would love to meet for coffee at sunrise, if there ever was a quiet place with a beautiful view that served coffee before sunrise. <br />
<br />
Life stories. Only I would just listen. Observe the noise. Observe the quiet. <br />
<br />
I enjoy another soul that makes me stop and think. Inspires me. <br />
<br />
Inspiration is everywhere. <br />
<br />
"Everything in our life should be based on love." Thank you, Ray Bradbury (1920-2012). <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-7A-eQ0GL8Ak/U3L0CNt6W1I/AAAAAAAAAU4/oU6hEkJreZ0/s640/blogger-image--1776827007.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-7A-eQ0GL8Ak/U3L0CNt6W1I/AAAAAAAAAU4/oU6hEkJreZ0/s640/blogger-image--1776827007.jpg" /></a></div> <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-QJTlUIXjdCc/U3L0C5oonUI/AAAAAAAAAVA/ZyU6bVe6Y1o/s640/blogger-image--888509274.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-QJTlUIXjdCc/U3L0C5oonUI/AAAAAAAAAVA/ZyU6bVe6Y1o/s640/blogger-image--888509274.jpg" /></a></div> <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-wKA4M2qFJcg/U3L0AwFoKRI/AAAAAAAAAUw/UTfZjOTSpc8/s640/blogger-image-666529411.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-wKA4M2qFJcg/U3L0AwFoKRI/AAAAAAAAAUw/UTfZjOTSpc8/s640/blogger-image-666529411.jpg" /></a></div> <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-F5lm5S-xoiw/U3L0D0pV8vI/AAAAAAAAAVI/8bOLwaih43c/s640/blogger-image-610952821.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-F5lm5S-xoiw/U3L0D0pV8vI/AAAAAAAAAVI/8bOLwaih43c/s640/blogger-image-610952821.jpg" /></a></div>KatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-74213568425888856992014-03-15T20:57:00.001-07:002014-03-15T20:57:42.152-07:00There are things that you don't know ..There are things that you don't know. <br />
I practice writing my soon to be last name on foggy windows and doors. And no matter how sloppy the outcome, I am always satisfied. <br />
I prefer to shower in a windowed bathroom in the daytime with the lights off and music. Clarity. <br />
I have nightmares of my past. Often.<br />
It's a reminder. That I was weak. So weak. But then again.. it is a reminder that I AM strong. And I wasn't strong until well.. The man that has forever been right under my nose was given the chance he worked so hard to deserve. <br />
I hit a rough patch a couple of years ago. I haven't been the same since. However, some things have changed about me for the better. I have a new light in my eyes. I see SO MUCH beauty in this chaotic world we live in now. It really is the little things that can make the biggest difference. Art. Beauty. They are in so many things that we go day to day without noticing. I see and feel so much of that now. We, as humans, take too much for granted. And while I still battle with the D word and anxiety from time to time. I know that I am far more blessed than I could ever deserve. And that, among many other things, gets me by with a joyful smile on my face. <br />
This is me. And at this point in time, I am the happiest I have ever been. But I know my God. And I know that He has plans. He continues to surprise me daily, even through my failures at recognizing His many blessings for us all sooner. He has plans, and this life is only going to get better. <br />
<br />
My God. The gift of my best friend. I am in awe. <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-z3RgPWkw3aQ/UyUhM5V-YII/AAAAAAAAAT8/CwQxx6i7wpE/s640/blogger-image--1146200697.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-z3RgPWkw3aQ/UyUhM5V-YII/AAAAAAAAAT8/CwQxx6i7wpE/s640/blogger-image--1146200697.jpg" /></a></div>KatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-42005350643172093012013-05-04T01:17:00.001-07:002013-05-04T01:17:45.811-07:00You'll know when (written February)You'll know when<br />
<br />
I know I'm afraid<br />
But I'd rather you stay<br />
Forever, with me<br />
So please don't go away <br />
I'll conquer the fears<br />
Let love conquer all<br />
Walk out of the shadows<br />
Let down every wall<br />
I'll build you a castle <br />
Upon a foundation that's true<br />
I'll do whatever it takes<br />
If it means that I keep you<br />
Winning you over<br />
I don't have to try <br />
I know that you're mine<br />
From now till you die<br />
But to comfort your heart<br />
And to ease your mind <br />
Because I know that you are anxious<br />
With wondering how much time<br />
I need not too long <br />
For I know that I'm for you<br />
Soon enough there'll be no waiting <br />
And then you'll know that.. I do <br />
Fear, it is haunting <br />
But know that He is strong<br />
Love will stop at nothing<br />
Because He knows where I belongKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-17557393658770552482013-05-04T01:13:00.001-07:002013-05-04T01:13:42.191-07:00Short and sweet (written last July)Sometimes I wonder<br />
But then I get sad<br />
So I sit here with you, <br />
Play pretend instead <br />
<br />
My imagination says:<br />
I'm yours and you're mine<br />
As reality screams<br />
Don't worry, you'll be fine<br />
<br />
I don't want to be blown away <br />
Or swept off my feet<br />
I just want to be here<br />
With you next to me <br />
KatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-91925499334480149402013-05-04T01:12:00.001-07:002013-05-04T01:12:30.875-07:00Sincerely (written last June) Sincerely.<br />
<br />
The thoughts in my head have more battles.. than you could ever comprehend. <br />
I'm sorry I let you down.<br />
I'm sorry I made things so hard. <br />
Let you forget who you are even though you're my best friend. <br />
<br />
I just got lost with you, somewhere along the way<br />
Let you fall into temptation <br />
Let you slip right through my hands<br />
Forgive me for that, please say you'll stay<br />
<br />
Undeserving and unexpected, I've been blessed by you completely<br />
My intentions weren't for evil<br />
My relationship not counterfeit <br />
I know that I slipped, let the wrong things deceive me<br />
<br />
I feel like a terrible person; I will take the blame<br />
If I lost you<br />
I'd be broken<br />
I want our friendship to remain the same<br />
<br />
I will never regret.. my sentimental summer spent with you<br />
It is bittersweet<br />
It still brings a smile <br />
I suppose this is just the beginning of something new <br />
<br />
The last thing I wish to do is place you underneath such pressure <br />
I want to be a better person<br />
I want to be a better friend<br />
Your company means more to me than that anyone can measure<br />
<br />
I'm sorry I let you down.<br />
I'm sorry I made things so hard. <br />
Let you forget who you are even though you're my best friend. KatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-30234081167677834742013-05-04T01:06:00.001-07:002013-05-04T01:06:02.227-07:00I'm not the brightest (also written a while back)Everyone hurts you at some point. You were just the last I expected. <br />
My ignorance again has won. <br />
I'm just a girl that can't be perfected.<br />
<br />
I knew that I would break <br />
Not this soon, but I'll watch you go<br />
So throw your blows, I can take it. <br />
I'm much stronger than you know. <br />
<br />
I hate to cry in public<br />
I prefer the solitude<br />
But what I hate even more.. <br />
Is saying that it's because of you <br />
<br />
Remember our long summer nights? <br />
Yeah, I'm sorry I shared that kiss <br />
Said you'd never screw me over<br />
You weren't supposed to do this <br />
<br />
But I can hold my head high <br />
I can walk away too<br />
This will be the only day I cry <br />
No worries, what we never had is through. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
KatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-13591073948100851762013-05-04T00:58:00.001-07:002013-05-04T00:58:33.984-07:00The Greatest Goodbye (written a year ago, but forgot to post to the
list)Walking out that door:<br />
Greatest choice I made.<br />
That phone call with you crying?<br />
Well, it made my day. <br />
<br />
Oh yes, I see so soon again you're dating<br />
Who you called your biggest mistake<br />
Yeah, you were right about that<br />
But being with you isn't something in which I wish to partake<br />
<br />
A round of applause,<br />
Your acting skills are fantastic!<br />
But you should work on your balls,<br />
Even women aren't to be so dramatic.<br />
<br />
Too far? I think not. <br />
Your dick's as dumb as was my heart. <br />
I'm pissed at the fact I let you in<br />
& Disgusted by you making girls a sport<br />
<br />
One, two, three, bang <br />
The list goes on and on<br />
When you get to the next one,<br />
Please can you tell me what it is you've won? <br />
<br />
Congratulations!<br />
But I don't think herpes is a prize<br />
Correct me if I'm wrong,<br />
I think you're safe, for from it no one dies <br />
<br />
Sorry I'm not sorry<br />
Oooh yes I know I'm mean<br />
That's all right, doesn't hurt my feelings <br />
For at least I know I'm clean<br />
<br />
My days are filled with laughter<br />
A joke, yes thanks for being <br />
I used to think you were a gentleman<br />
But little boys can be so deceiving <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
KatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-88950065475224757522012-10-11T22:19:00.001-07:002012-10-11T22:19:05.701-07:00What's a Girl to do?Because you're in my heart<br />
You are always on my mind <br />
All the love I've found in you <br />
I thought that I would never find <br />
<br />
So much time that we have spent <br />
Who would have thought we'd end up here? <br />
That you'd be scaling every wall..<br />
That you'd be conquering every fear?<br />
<br />
Cold hearted and alone<br />
That's where I sat myself within <br />
Blanketing your true comfort <br />
Blind, because I was scared of where I'd been <br />
<br />
To let you in or not? <br />
To chance losing my best friend?<br />
Were the reoccurring thoughts<br />
The battles seeming without end <br />
<br />
But through time you won me over <br />
I spent the summer on cloud nine<br />
And this time you weren't leaving<br />
Without you finally becoming mine <br />
<br />
And now here we are together <br />
And everyday feels like a dream<br />
Those dreams are titled as forever <br />
For I am entrapped within your scheme <br />
<br />
I said I wasn't supposed to love you <br />
For it is evil and is not real <br />
But those were words ignorantly spoken <br />
Before my heart you surely proved to steal <br />
<br />
-me KatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-17455795252602597662012-10-01T20:39:00.001-07:002012-10-04T22:19:29.212-07:00Lets talk about the nonsense that isn't nonsenseLove. <br />
I tried my best to do away with it completely. <br />
But. <br />
He just wouldn't let me. <br />
<br />
Needless to say, I had the most incredible and eventful summer of my life. <br />
And it turned out to be the beginning of something I never saw coming. <br />
The beginning of forever? Well I don't know. I'm still quite frightened by those terms, but definitely the beginning of some time. <br />
My best friend is one incredible man. <br />
As scared as I've been, he has put me at ease. <br />
And.. Slowly but surely I "fell for" my very best friend. <br />
<br />
And as for now, I am slowly but surely putting away the anger that arose in allowing myself to feel again. To let in again. To allow someone to scale the walls I built so high and hold me close whispering words I've always been afraid to believe again. <br />
I don't know what's to become of this, but as much as I dislike being wrong.. I hope he is proving me wrong with everyday we face together. <br />
I've put a lot on the line. And it has to work. Why? Because he is my best friend. And I can't lose that. <br />
Everyday he's making me better. I cherish and adore him more than most things in this life. I cannot thank God enough for blessing me with as much as He has. I am forever grateful. <br />
<br />
KatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-68907876732561736952012-07-26T21:13:00.001-07:002012-07-26T21:13:40.139-07:00Disappointed in MyselfIt's the most beautiful things I'm afraid of..<br />
Like having someone in my life "forever".<br />
Now the thunder rolls outside my window <br />
And I know that we won't be together.<br />
<br />
I can hear the rain beating down on my roof <br />
And trickle down by my window with the faint sound of chime. <br />
A tear rolls down my right cheek <br />
Because I know that we've ran out of time.<br />
<br />
In opposite directions we'll go alone on our own paths<br />
I'll cry when I reach out and you're not there.<br />
A storm is a beautiful thing, but when it passes...<br />
Will you still be there for me to care?<br />
<br />
What have I done? <br />
Afraid to love and afraid to lose.<br />
Scared of what I'm feeling <br />
And now I don't even get to choose.<br />
<br />
The sky is angry <br />
As my heart cries.<br />
I couldn't possibly prepare myself.<br />
This will be the worst of goodbyes.<br />
<br />
Complicated.. <br />
Why must life be?<br />
My brain and my heart argue<br />
With what stands right here in front of me.<br />
<br />
Stubborn they are <br />
Don't they know you'll soon be gone?<br />
You'll be much better off.<br />
A new place for you to forget and to move on.<br />
<br />
I miss you now and I'll miss you then;<br />
I know that we will both be fine.<br />
Here, is nothing to end.<br />
At least for the summer, it was almost like you were mine.<br />
<br />
I know it's going to be hard,<br />
But I'll be happy for you then.<br />
You'll soon get what you deserve<br />
And I'll smile because you're my best friend.. <br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-23824212055701452362012-07-12T21:54:00.001-07:002012-07-12T21:54:13.811-07:00While you were sleeping.I'm scared to touch you because I may feel something.. more than just your skin.<br />
I've made promises to myself.. Including: not to let you in. <br />
You know that line, I play for keeps is seeming to hold true. <br />
I chose the game, but it played me because my heart has lost to you. <br />
I'm afraid and too afraid to show it because you're my best friend. <br />
But if truth be told and you asked me, This summer I don't want to end. <br />
Letting you go, saying goodbye.. Is already choking me. <br />
I'll put up blinds as my heart cries.. Hiding so you can't see. <br />
At night I think and lie awake as thoughts of you fill in my head.<br />
The sweetest words and compliments have been the ones that you have said. <br />
All the care and all the kindness are things I never knew. <br />
Genuine and all sincere, but will it prove always to hold true? <br />
My best friend forever or just an ex later, when my friend you've always been? <br />
I flag the feelings. Forcing them down, for with them I can't win. <br />
If they arose, I'd surely lose you and that I cannot handle. <br />
Because we have a bond that to me is special, and it's worth so much more than just a summer scandal. <br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-1252741400193132622012-07-08T22:01:00.001-07:002012-10-01T20:29:45.897-07:00The First SignLet's be honest..<br />
I've found myself scared of how I might feel when you leave.<br />
Let's be honest..<br />
I've become a bit addicted to the way that you've touched me.<br />
<br />
I've become attached <br />
To your fingers in my hair, <br />
To your kisses on my forehead,<br />
To the sincere way that you care.<br />
<br />
You're my best friend.<br />
Please don't go away.<br />
I know I act chill when I leave,<br />
But I always want to stay.<br />
<br />
Let's be honest..<br />
I'm fighting this hard.<br />
I may be the joker,<br />
But you hold the card.<br />
<br />
Let's be honest..<br />
I'm scared to be alone.<br />
I front like I'm tough.<br />
Put you in the friend zone.<br />
<br />
I cringe at the future.<br />
The thought makes me sick.<br />
I wish to stay right where I am,<br />
But the time is passing quick.<br />
<br />
To think that I'll be on my own..<br />
And question what will I do?<br />
Makes me wonder what would happen..<br />
If I chose to cling to you?<br />
<br />
Let's be honest..<br />
I'm clawing feelings like a tiger.<br />
Scared that if I pounce I just might bleed.<br />
So to them I still remain a fighter.<br />
<br />
Let's be honest..<br />
The reason I tell you not to fall for me is because I fell for you..<br />
And the reason I say that "love" is a lie is because I'm scared that I'll love you..<br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-67294393765322105492012-07-03T23:01:00.001-07:002012-07-03T23:01:36.064-07:00Don't Fall in Love with HerShe had lights in her eyes<br />
Even in the darkest of times <br />
Hates goodbyes<br />
And being in public when she cries <br />
<br />
She's trouble indeed <br />
She doesn't follow, she leads<br />
Wild heart freed<br />
And eyes you can't read<br />
<br />
Don't fall in love with her<br />
<br />
It's not hard to make her smile<br />
She'll never walk down the aisle<br />
In her shoes you couldn't walk a mile<br />
But your time she'll make worth while <br />
<br />
She isn't a snake <br />
Not by any means fake<br />
But a lie she won't take <br />
She won't accept heartbreak <br />
<br />
Don't fall in love with her<br />
<br />
She wears her heart on her sleeve<br />
In "love" she doesn't believe<br />
Her hand you won't achieve <br />
But she's a friend that won't leave<br />
<br />
Stubborn as a rock<br />
Heart down on lock <br />
"love" she likes to mock<br />
And feelings she will block<br />
<br />
So don't fall in love with her<br />
<br />
Flawed like no other and perfectly alone<br />
But she'll miss you when your gone <br />
And the smell of your cologne<br />
You've been the best friend she's ever known <br />
She'll always treasure your friendship and the kindness that you've shown <br />
<br />
But don't fall in love with her <br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-53161414799201171542012-06-28T19:45:00.001-07:002012-06-28T19:45:43.925-07:00Find Happiness WithinIt's not always easy,<br />
This life we live<br />
Sometimes hard to forget the pain <br />
But we must choose to forgive <br />
Forgive the ones that made you victim <br />
Forgive yourself too<br />
Forget the past that broke you down<br />
But remember the strength it built pushing through <br />
Heart on the sleeve <br />
Broken into parts <br />
A puzzle piece of a mess <br />
Pushing away before anything starts<br />
Wearing a smile with confidence<br />
And I'll let no one in <br />
It'd be easier for you to understand <br />
If you had felt where I had been <br />
So judge not my cold decisions<br />
Sitting on walls I've built so high<br />
It might be a little different <br />
Had I not heard lie after lie <br />
I'd rather live alone <br />
Than choose to "love" in fear<br />
A beautiful lie indeed<br />
But not one I wish again to hear <br />
Happiness is what I'm feeling<br />
Old is gone and new locked out<br />
Being so content with just myself <br />
Is what living is all about <br />
So learn it now before it's later<br />
You don't always need someone new<br />
Please stop searching and waiting around. <br />
When the key to happiness is NOT in someone else here, but in God and in YOU!<br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-60895033576789434042012-06-02T22:44:00.001-07:002012-06-02T22:44:56.515-07:00Mama knows bestI think if I were ever going to attempt to unfreeze this heart so cold, <br />
it would be for a country man. <br />
A loyal son of a gun. <br />
Knows how to shoot and have some fun. <br />
Grabs me by the hand, takes me down to the river.<br />
Ain't afraid to say yes sir no ma'am, you see that girl: I'm with her. <br />
Kind, polite manner.<br />
Shows anger only when he needs.<br />
Will help you cross the street with an arm and a smile.<br />
Always down for good deeds. <br />
Takes his hat off when in.<br />
Leaves his boots at the door. <br />
Is faithful to you.<br />
Will never leave you for an easy whore.<br />
Opens the door for you to step in and out.<br />
Never gets scared or pathetically runs away in doubt.<br />
You see all boys are the same, <br />
But all men are not. <br />
Make sure when you're choosin'<br />
Country strong is what you got. <br />
KatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-72313922653872835552012-05-21T22:32:00.001-07:002012-05-21T22:32:01.879-07:00You can say I'm scaredThey reach for my hand<br />
But I just flash them a smile<br />
I don't mean to always reject<br />
They know not I've been hurting all the while<br />
Walls and walls<br />
Steady as they go<br />
Up and higher<br />
Where does it end? Couldn't possibly know..<br />
The scars I now wear<br />
Have me under the covers <br />
I fear the worst<br />
No more monsters or lovers<br />
They call me bitter<br />
They call me crazed <br />
But I've been abandoned one too many times <br />
And used in so many ways <br />
I am clenched to my loneliness with such contentment it's sad <br />
Because I cringe at "commitment" like it's just the recent fad <br />
I have been called weak<br />
Judged by the tears I have cried <br />
But I am stronger than you know <br />
Built up by every promise broken and every word lied<br />
A relationship with self<br />
And a relationship with Him <br />
Is a bond that when together can be trusted<br />
Can grow stronger without His love smoldering dim<br />
Honesty and respect:<br />
An issue known today<br />
This world is lazy. Leaving's easy<br />
Makes it simple to stay away <br />
A lost cause I may be<br />
I'm a storm in clear weather <br />
Or the most difficult challenge<br />
But for now I'm screaming never <br />
<br />
-Kate Gill KatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-7798521170781754032012-05-15T22:10:00.000-07:002012-05-15T22:16:00.293-07:00Just a lesson learnedWritten May 3, 2012
<br />
I still remember you coming home to me all those nights<br />
I still remember you were my best friend<br />
But now I can close my eyes and turn out the lights<br />
Because now you're far from who we all knew then<br />
The funny thing about pictures is<br />
The people in them change<br />
Now you're just a memory in an album<br />
And I've finally turned the page<br />
It's not heartbreaking that we're apart<br />
Just that you're not the same<br />
The pleasure you took in making me smile<br />
Turned out to be just a game<br />
That wonderful person we all thought we knew<br />
Has disappeared and gone<br />
As sad as it is to think about<br />
It's always darkest before the dawn<br />
My very best friend turned out to be a phony<br />
And without a care in the world<br />
Left me completely stranded<br />
To be lonely<br />
But little do you know<br />
Every time you try to cut me down I'm winning<br />
Brings me up that much higher<br />
And now I can't stop grinning<br />
I thought I lost it all when I lost you<br />
But now I see I'm only better<br />
Because in the end you were all wrong<br />
I knew it from the moment I met her<br />
You put on quite the act I will admit<br />
You really had everyone fooled<br />
Had us believing every lie you said<br />
How can it feel good to be so cruel?<br />
But you're crazy for toying around with my heart<br />
Because I truly loved you at your worst<br />
You won't be the last person I love<br />
Even if I was mistaken to make you my first<br />
I hope you can look back one day<br />
And appreciate me even though you let me fall<br />
I hope then I bring a smile and a tear to your face<br />
Because at one point we really did have it all..<br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-34005676572319030542012-05-15T22:08:00.001-07:002012-05-15T22:21:12.487-07:00Here's to me!Written April 25, 2012
<br />
She was lonely<br />
Aching, hurting<br />
Broken down. Like never before.<br />
Crying only<br />
Praying for rescue<br />
You feel like a man? Pushing her down to the floor?<br />
Well now..<br />
Here's to me!<br />
Pour me a cold one<br />
Make it a strong one on the rocks<br />
Here's to you!<br />
A lonely evening<br />
Make it a long one on the docks<br />
I hope every minute was worth it<br />
Using other girls to shoot your gun<br />
Falling into every lie you said<br />
Have fun the rest of your life with just your hand<br />
Changes are showing<br />
She's finally smiling<br />
Picked herself up<br />
Moving on and forgetting<br />
Learning and growing<br />
Because she's strong enough<br />
Now<br />
Here's to me!<br />
Pour me a cold one<br />
Make it a strong one on the rocks<br />
Here's to you!<br />
A lonely evening<br />
Make it a long one on the docks<br />
I won't be that girl at the end of the night<br />
Being used and so abused<br />
Yeah you heard it right<br />
I said what I meant<br />
I'll no longer be accused<br />
I'm gone.<br />
Here's to me!<br />
Pour me a cold one<br />
Make it a strong one on the rocks<br />
Here's to you!<br />
A lonely evening<br />
Make it a long one on the docks<br />
I hope every minute was worth it<br />
Using other girls to shoot your gun<br />
Falling into every lie you said<br />
Have fun the rest of your life with just your hand<br />
Yeah here's to me man!<br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-58947758767143174612012-05-15T22:07:00.002-07:002012-05-15T22:25:00.095-07:00Want a change, be the change.Written April 25, 2012
<br />
Well tell me girl..<br />
How does it feel to be a fool?<br />
Mind games set in..<br />
You both played me and he's played you<br />
Pity for you?<br />
No, I have none<br />
Better grab what you have left<br />
From the boy not yet a man, you should run<br />
Run far. Run fast.<br />
Show the world a better change.<br />
I know you feel so empty<br />
In a world so cold, a world so strange.<br />
Time is nothing<br />
Don't be foolish<br />
It's not to late to set free<br />
Learn to be true<br />
Become what's honest<br />
No better day to begin to be..<br />
Keep on walkin'. Don't look back.<br />
The patience had is now no more.<br />
Close your mouth like your mind.<br />
Leave your excuses at the door.<br />
We've all had a turn to pull the evil chain<br />
Broken down for what?<br />
No sense in fighting over lies<br />
Where is the worth in a boy who's caused no trust and too much pain?<br />
Run far. Run fast.<br />
Show the world a better change.<br />
I know you feel so empty<br />
In a world so cold, a world so strange.<br />
Time is nothing<br />
Don't be foolish<br />
It's not to late to set free<br />
Learn to be true<br />
Become what's honest<br />
No better day to begin to be..<br />
He has received just what he wanted<br />
Two girls at once right at his feet<br />
Now not so sweet as was expected<br />
That I can surely guarantee<br />
Different girl every weekend only goes so far<br />
Deserving to be lonely<br />
Yes, but constant downing isn't right<br />
This time is best for motivation to discover who you are<br />
Time is nothing<br />
Don't be foolish<br />
It's not to late to set free<br />
Learn to be true<br />
Become what's honest<br />
No better day to begin to be..<br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-87091575469179583502012-05-15T22:06:00.000-07:002012-05-15T22:29:05.782-07:00I don't wanna be scaredWritten April 2, 2012
<br />
I don't wanna be scared<br />
Take it all away<br />
Tell me no worries<br />
Say it'll all be okay<br />
Lets run so far<br />
Just grab my heart<br />
Run far from the bullshit<br />
Complete with a brand new start<br />
Please don't hurt me again<br />
Don't put other girls before me<br />
When life hits you hard<br />
The last thing we need is for you to ignore me<br />
I want to feel needed<br />
Or at least a bit wanted<br />
I won't be kicked down<br />
Or ever by her again be taunted<br />
I refuse to be thrown<br />
Under the bus<br />
Just make me your only girl<br />
And there will be no fuss<br />
I'm a priority<br />
Not an option<br />
Any girl like that again<br />
Promise baby, better think with caution<br />
I'm number one<br />
Not number two or three<br />
So you have a lot to show<br />
Because it's no more her or me<br />
I won't settle for that<br />
I deserve to be treated right<br />
At least with some respect<br />
I won't stick around for girls or about them to fight<br />
I'm learning to put myself ahead<br />
Please place yourself in my shoes<br />
I'm not going to be stepped on this time<br />
Baby you have to choose<br />
I won't handle disrespect<br />
I won't handle bull<br />
I won't go for round two<br />
Because this time I won't be looked at as a fool<br />
It's my heart on the line<br />
I can't handle it shattered<br />
Make me feel more important<br />
Not like someone else really mattered<br />
I don't wanna be scared<br />
Show me I have nothing to fear<br />
Be only for me<br />
Show me where you wanna be is here <br />
<br />
- Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-25626354088143249862012-05-15T22:04:00.002-07:002012-05-15T22:36:45.991-07:00Fear fades in youWritten April 2, 2012
<br />
You're slowly fixing what you've broken<br />
Mending wounds, replacing words that should not have been spoken<br />
Putting that smile back upon my face<br />
All frowns and tears your hands now erase<br />
Where'd you go?<br />
I wish I knew<br />
You will never understand the extent of pain you put me through<br />
But you're here now<br />
And I can't explain this feeling<br />
So much warmth and emotion<br />
Time is certainly revealing<br />
You take me there when you take my hand<br />
It's hitting me now how much I missed my best friend<br />
When I say I'm happy..<br />
It's good to know I mean it<br />
It's finally real<br />
About time my life has seen it<br />
It's a gradual change<br />
Everyday it's getting better<br />
You don't know how good it feels<br />
I hope it stays this way forever<br />
That stage of down I thought i'd never get out<br />
Wasn't myself, my head was filled with so much ache and doubt<br />
It's all a process<br />
A cruel process of life indeed<br />
Overcoming obstacles<br />
To show and prove each other we need<br />
It's okay to fall sometimes<br />
We eventually pick each other up<br />
Even the best hit the ground<br />
Have their worst, but haven't sunk<br />
Don't let me drown<br />
Stay here and hold true<br />
I don't want to slip down again<br />
I think it's obvious I need you<br />
Something about the look in your eyes<br />
Let's me know to stay at ease<br />
Scared to death, but still faith clinging<br />
No more running please<br />
I'm not asking for serious needs<br />
Just please keep on proving<br />
Show me more..<br />
Let me trust you're not moving<br />
The mending continues<br />
I'm getting better everyday<br />
I thank you for that<br />
One question: please stay?<br />
<br />
- Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-53351756099328071672012-05-15T22:03:00.002-07:002012-05-15T22:40:25.265-07:00To the moon wasn't far enoughWritten March 1, 2012
<br />
To the moon is mighty far away<br />
But it wasn't long enough to match the length you said you'd stay<br />
And back again is even farther<br />
Matched how far that you did run when times showed they had gotten harder<br />
<br />
Faith is lost and hope is gone<br />
We didn't achieve the lasting love we thought we'd won<br />
You gave up and left me stranded all alone<br />
No explanations, sitting by the phone<br />
<br />
I fell to my knees and slowly to my face<br />
Waiting for you my heart began to race<br />
But you never came, you ran away<br />
After a year of promising with me you'd always stay<br />
<br />
So many lies you fed to my head<br />
When all along your plan was to leave instead<br />
You thought with your junk more than your brain<br />
And after that you were never the same<br />
<br />
You've gone back to the past because with it you're not finished<br />
Slinking around, our relationship diminished<br />
You can trust no one is what I've learned<br />
Always guard your heart, so you don't get burned<br />
<br />
I've grown cold and extremely bitter<br />
For I should have known that you too would be a quitter<br />
You're no different from the rest<br />
And there's no such thing as finding the best<br />
<br />
Young and naive I let myself go<br />
Now here I am at an all time low<br />
Thinking on the past when I thought things couldn't possibly get better<br />
Because I never had such feelings like the ones we shared together<br />
<br />
But now all faith is lost and hope is gone<br />
We didn't achieve the lasting love we thought we'd won<br />
To the moon is mighty far away<br />
But it wasn't long enough to match the length you said you'd stay<br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-89559469056935887422012-05-15T22:01:00.004-07:002012-05-15T22:54:56.981-07:00One day. Without you.Written Feb 29, 2012
<br />
One day, I'll wake.<br />
A smile on my face.<br />
One day, my brain.<br />
These memories will erase.<br />
Without you.<br />
Without you.<br />
One day, these tears.<br />
They will surely fade.<br />
One day, you'll see.<br />
These scars that you have made.<br />
But I'll move on..<br />
Without you.<br />
Without you.<br />
One day, my heart.<br />
The pieces will arrange.<br />
One day, alone.<br />
I won't feel so strange.<br />
Without you..<br />
Without you.<br />
And I will make it by.<br />
No. No more tears I'll cry.<br />
I will move on..<br />
Without you.<br />
And I will find my strength.<br />
Of you I will not think.<br />
I'm moving on..<br />
Without you.<br />
One day, my eyes.<br />
They are gonna shine.<br />
One day, my love.<br />
Will only be mine!<br />
Because I'm gone..<br />
Without you.<br />
One day, you'll think.<br />
Damn that girl was good.<br />
One day, my hand.<br />
Boy you'll wish you could!<br />
But baby I..<br />
I'll be long gone..<br />
Without you.<br />
Without you.<br />
A free mind.<br />
One day.<br />
I'll be fine.<br />
One day.<br />
A good cry.<br />
No more.<br />
A good bye.<br />
Right now!<br />
Cuz boy I'm gone..<br />
I'm so far gone..<br />
Without you.<br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-41884953870673930912012-05-15T21:59:00.002-07:002012-05-15T22:57:08.509-07:00This is my heart, it was made for youWritten October 12, 2011
<br />
The beat in my heart sings a song for you, a song for you to know<br />
A melody for you to know that I am yours<br />
That produces a feeling that will never cease to grow<br />
Can you hear it?<br />
Hear it soft and sweet even through the miles and time between?<br />
Can you feel it?<br />
Strong and steady even through the hard times we’ve seen?<br />
Sometimes it’s weak, but it always holds true<br />
To beat for one alone, to sing just for you<br />
It may skip a few beats and sing out of tune,<br />
But it hopes to be enough<br />
Because it loves you to the moon<br />
No matter the hardships,<br />
Know there could never be<br />
Another to make it beat like this<br />
To make me this happy<br />
Because for you it was made<br />
Given the reason to beat<br />
The reason to sing, to live<br />
You make it strong, you make it true<br />
For this it will always sing for only you<br />
<br />
- Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880909767475123338.post-11371103331744647332012-05-15T21:57:00.001-07:002012-05-15T22:47:44.900-07:00Don't be so JudgementalWritten June 27, 2011
<br />
Don't crush the dreams of the now pre-teen<br />
When we all lived the same way<br />
Though now we know then it wasn't love<br />
It was fun to pretend so and say<br />
Without judgement, let it happen. Let her learn<br />
For who are we to tell her that she does not know what love is?<br />
Don't crush the dreams of the now high school freshman falling for the senior king<br />
When we all lived the same way<br />
Though now we know then it wasn't love<br />
It was fun to pretend so and say..<br />
Without judgement, let it happen. Let her learn<br />
For who are we to tell her that she does not know what love is?<br />
Don't crush the dreams of the now senior queen following the college boy<br />
When we all lived the same way<br />
Though now we know then it wasn't love<br />
It was fun to pretend so and say..<br />
Without judgement, let it happen. Let her learn<br />
For who are we to tell her that she does not know what love is?<br />
Don't crush the dreams of the now college girl spending all of her time with one boy<br />
Though we'd like to say that it isn't love<br />
It appears to be that it may..<br />
Without judgement, let it happen. Let her learn<br />
For who are we to tell her that she does not know what love is?<br />
Don't crush the dreams of the now college grad marrying one special man<br />
Though we'd like to say that it isn't love<br />
It appears to be that it may..<br />
Without judgement, let it happen. Let her learn<br />
For who are we to tell her that she does not know what love is?<br />
The college grad, now a grown woman<br />
Still married to that one special man<br />
Though we'd like to say that it wasn't love<br />
It appears to be that way..<br />
Without judgement, let it happen. Let her learn<br />
For who are we to tell her that she did not know what love is?<br />
That then grown woman, now an old lady<br />
50 years spent with that one special man<br />
Though we said that it wasn't love<br />
It obviously was that way..<br />
With all the judement in the world, it happened. But she learned.. through all the broken hearts she endured as a young girl were only preparing her to appreciate this one special man..<br />
So, without judgement.. Let it happen. Let people learn.<br />
For who are we to tell anyone that they themselves do not know what love is when we all lived the same way??<br />
Without judgement, let it happen and let yourself learn.<br />
For with all you've been and will go through..<br />
You wouldn't want the world telling you what you feel with judgement<br />
When they all lived the same way<br />
<br />
-Kate GillKatelynGillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10659269093760389751noreply@blogger.com2