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Thursday, October 11, 2012

What's a Girl to do?

Because you're in my heart
You are always on my mind
All the love I've found in you
I thought that I would never find

So much time that we have spent
Who would have thought we'd end up here?
That you'd be scaling every wall..
That you'd be conquering every fear?

Cold hearted and alone
That's where I sat myself within
Blanketing your true comfort
Blind, because I was scared of where I'd been

To let you in or not?
To chance losing my best friend?
Were the reoccurring thoughts
The battles seeming without end

But through time you won me over
I spent the summer on cloud nine
And this time you weren't leaving
Without you finally becoming mine

And now here we are together
And everyday feels like a dream
Those dreams are titled as forever
For I am entrapped within your scheme

I said I wasn't supposed to love you
For it is evil and is not real
But those were words ignorantly spoken
Before my heart you surely proved to steal


Monday, October 1, 2012

Lets talk about the nonsense that isn't nonsense

I tried my best to do away with it completely.
He just wouldn't let me.

Needless to say, I had the most incredible and eventful summer of my life.
And it turned out to be the beginning of something I never saw coming.
The beginning of forever? Well I don't know. I'm still quite frightened by those terms, but definitely the beginning of some time.
My best friend is one incredible man.
As scared as I've been, he has put me at ease.
And.. Slowly but surely I "fell for" my very best friend.

And as for now, I am slowly but surely putting away the anger that arose in allowing myself to feel again. To let in again. To allow someone to scale the walls I built so high and hold me close whispering words I've always been afraid to believe again.
I don't know what's to become of this, but as much as I dislike being wrong.. I hope he is proving me wrong with everyday we face together.
I've put a lot on the line. And it has to work. Why? Because he is my best friend. And I can't lose that.
Everyday he's making me better. I cherish and adore him more than most things in this life. I cannot thank God enough for blessing me with as much as He has. I am forever grateful.